people come and go in your life, and there are those very few that will stick around for a lifetime. they are the ones that will find the "best" and "good" in you, accepts you for you, and doesnt need to change you. i guess everyone comes in your life for a reason, to teach you a lesson, whether it may be good or bad. i keep telling myself to look at it as everything happens for a reason.
all the troubles and sadness, disappointments and hurt will only help you become a stronger person. there are some things that i dont understand, yet, i dont bother to even try. some things are just not meant to be changed. ive given up.
i always seem to learn things the hard way, never the easy way. it teaches me, but it seems as though i suffer for a loooonnngggg time. then again, what will you learn by always taking the easy way out. i wish i could give people chances or even take chances, but i cant. i cant because im scared. its not good thing at all. ive blocked people out because i was scared, and they were the very ones that i shouldnt have. i know that i shouldnt have hurt them and make them suffer the consequences because of the ones that have hurt me in the past. my mistake, cant take it back, that was selfish of me.
i tend to push people aside when im sad, i know i shouldnt, theyre offering me their consideration of being here for me, yet, i feel like its not their problems so i figure i can solve it all by myself.
closure. i need closure. thats all i needed. thats all ive asked for. i couldnt get that. maybe thats why i cant seem to give people chances?
waiting around sometimes makes you give up. makes you get tired of these games. the truth would be great.
timing is everything. you rarely find one who understands everything you tell them, has been thru the exact situations as you, and is in a similar problem as you now, but with bad timing, theres nothing. i want the friendship back..
whats meant to be will always find its way. someday, everything will fall into place. i think im tired of this. | 